When People Get Love

I have realised how beautiful LOVE is. For the past years I have been receiving love from many people and I am glad that it happened. Yesterday, meeting up with my Chickstas really made my day. I have to admit that we do have issues at times but they are the ones I go back to at the end of the day and still loving them. Having a great group of supporters is really awesome. They are there when no one else wants to and they give you the best head shot to wake you from your delirious thoughts towards doomsdom. Whats left in human if there is no love at all? I am afraid to even think about it. I am so blessed with the amount of love I get, I couldn’t complain. I am happy and grateful for the caring people in my life.

I pretty much suffer from hyperactivity which leads to distraction.

I get drifted easily and I am aware.

Back to this topic, LOVE as a friend of mine said with respect to the boy/girl relationship, is both beautiful and disastrous. Recently, I have friends that had issues with it. Most of them suffered from bad relationships and traumatic ones. They seem to be negative about it after the bad ones, the aftermath. Some of them is traveling on the fast lane which scares me. I this thing when it comes speeding, it makes everything blurry and dangerous that all together goes freaky. While on the other hand my other friend is taking time thinking if its worthiness to keep a relationship that went sour but reconciled. Me, on the other hand is enjoying the view and savouring the beautiful scenes, leaving things to fall into its own pits. I have told my friends to shift their gears down and enjoy the beauty while they can. At this stage, getting the plans straightened and on par can be quite a hassle as we are parting towards our own paths and not everyone is ready to commit themselves towards a shared path. There are some that is and have done exactly that, I have to say that I am skeptical about it however, they gain my respect for such courage. I really hope that you’ve made the right choice and that you won’t give up on it easily. I admit that I love being an individual and different from others but not on this. I am not ready to commit because I still have things to follow up.

My other friend is there worrying about her appearance acting as an obstacle towards relationship and a family of her own. I understand how she feels as the media is flashy with skinny, perfect skin, straight hair girls. Well she might not have all of those physically yet she is one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever met. Will love surpass the media? It is really hard to answer that. I hope it does because down here on Earth we are all human, with same differences and similarity. If the boys can’t see how beautiful a person she is I hope that men will. It is easy to get pretty people around cause they are all over the street with the genius invention of designer clothes and make ups but a beautiful person is invented with a heart of gold and a beautiful soul, all with the grace of God. It is a pity if no one can appreciate that. So dear friend, if the boys and men can’t see that, they are too blind to be worthy. I love you and the rest of us too.

To all my beautiful friends, thanks for the love you shared and still sharing with me.

“Beauty shines from inside through investment of goodness, pretty flashes through make up invested with a lot of money.”
P/S :

It was really good to get a caring call on New Year’s Eve. Thanks for calling it really    meant a lot and I am glad that you didn’t give up calling despite the amount of times you couldn’t get through.

Into A New Beginning

How does it feel to be in something that you are not sure of? A question I often ponder and never had enough of. I like thinking, it has become a hobby of mine – maybe thats the answer to the amount of lines on my palms. Which is good and bad in its own way. Well unnecessary stress isn’t something a psychiatrist would recommend.

The year 2008 is approaching as the seconds passes by and I am trying to imagine how 2008 would be. Getting into something that you are not sure of without a clear direction is really something. That was what I that took part in about half a year ago. I took part in something that I am not sure of, clueless and definitely reluctant. I was totally devastated and worked up in that big twist of life. Nothing had turned out like how I wanted it to be, the way I planned and most importantly, the way I have worked for it. I know that I might have worked less than the ones around my surrounding but I have definitely top an enormous amount in my own account. They have always said, “Look into your own account and don’t compare yours with theirs” I did and wasn’t feeling guilty. However, I wasn’t happy when my effort didn’t balance the account. I was furious with everyone that was “responsible” and was angry at God, which I am ashame to admit.

Being that depressed and emotional wreck that I was, made things worst. I lose so much in my own account. I only had myself to pity, myself to cry for and myself for the worst. It was really a nightmare that one of the most important person in my life lose that V.I.P. status. I didn’t care anymore and I lied to myself that nothing matters because I am a wreck.

The person that had – helped me, inspired me, motivated me and most importantly, brought me to the person that I am today, was ignored and abused in my mentally account. I had tried to kept that particular account out or in other words, delete that account. However, it didn’t happen that way because that person had influenced me so much that somehow my senses came back and knock the villain out of my system.

When a twist took charge in my life, I became such a wreck and nightmare that I, myself couldn’t bear. I know with this experience, I will be the stronger side of the society and it will be a good immunity for me in this ‘dog eat dog world’. Going in to 2008 would somehow be the same because I still hasn’t found my direction that have always acted as my security.

When the security in someone is battled down after years of mastermind, it will not be easy to reconstruct again. Thus, it means working from scratch. Getting to know the something you didn’t and drawing new plans while working a new system from the base. This could be a better masterpiece.

When failure can’t crush you, it will improvise you. When a wreck leaves the wreckage, it wakes undiscovered potential.

Blessed New Year and a safe journey into the unknown.

Women Aren’t For Harassing

First of all, I am back into the blogging world with connection. Hopefully I’ll be able to blog more. However, that’s not the point here.

Allow me to direct you to my point. The title explains it already. Sexual Harassment!

A very dear friend of mine was sexually harassed twice in less than a week. What did she do wrong that you (referring to sexual harassers) need to torment her in that way? When she pull you back to your inconsistent sense, you pull a face and tell her that it was a joke. That uncivilized joke of yours is not at all funny or witty. Man, you’ve got a bad sense of humour and you should know that it will do you good to keep it to yourself. Though you sexually harassed her orally, you have carved an ugly scar into her life. That joke of yours had her living in fear and challenged self confidence. She is curvaceous and have got assets which she should be happy about until you destroyed it. It is her physique, biologically, naturally given by God and not for you to amuse yourself. Now your immoral behaviour led her to trauma, fear and emotional stresses. Does doing something like that makes you happy? Perhaps, sick minded people have sick ways in finding happiness isn’t it?

Some of you might argue that the way some female dresses is the cause of your sick behaviour. I would have to put some of my agreement on it yet it doesn’t permit you to sexually harass a person on any ’causes’. You could always make a smarter choice and avoid sexual harassment, like the healthy people. I am well aware that even some female is involve with sexual harassment, maybe some of you have been victimized and I feel sorry for you. As a female I feel disgraced and embarrassed due to their sickly behaviour. While women rights activist are asking males to stop sexual harassment against women, some of the people they represent (female sexual harassers) are doing the otherwise.

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Rebirth Into Blogosphere

I stopped blogging probably about a month ago by making my Blogger blog private. Thats because I had too many private posts there and I can’t make my post private. Therefore, I made my blog private. All these time when I didn’t blog I had things that I want to blog about and resisted because I didn’t want to have this inconsistent blogging that annoys myself. Now that I had subscribed to a Data Line which allows me to go online anywhere and at anytime UNLIMITED… Here I am.