Today with the sun shining ever brightly outside our house back in hometown and with my grandmother preparing ingrediants in the kitchen, I am as excited as my little dog for tomorrow. Tomorrow will be the last day in the Lunar Calendar celebrated with luxury dishes along with all the members in the family for Reunion Dinner. All the cookies and celebration cakes fills the Tupperware, fridge congested with packet drinks, and the house with the celebration aura. This is a good feeling. Very warm and inviting.
However, this feeling is interfered with a forbidden feeling. I guess it is just me being a modern and very much into reality person. Just two days before the celebration, here I am thinking of death. I guess I can’t help it as every festive season marks a high score on the scoreboard of death. This encounter comes closer to my heart as many years back when I was still in primary school, our family was involved in a car accident in which had me a dislocated and fractured jaw. That causes my absence of months from school and months of silence. We were blessed that no one’s life was claimed or so. Only my grandma and I had injuries and the rest were safe.
This time around, I pray that nothing near that will occur. However, I believe that we are destined in life. God have His plans for us. He that creates us shall also redeem us when the time is come. I believe in it. With the amount of bus accidents, I am a little worried as I will be traveling by bus to uni. That would certainly be very nervous.
The thought of “What If I Die?” comes to mind and I really couldn’t stop thinking. I know that this isn’t the auspicious thing to ponder nearing Chinese New Year, but this is life. People die every day and every second.
When I Die
It shall be a day of remembrance
Of fond memories You and I had
It will be a day of smiles
For the time we shared and cherished
It will be a day to remember our love for one another
Only the tears of love can flow in a gracious manner
For it is His order we live in
If there is one person that shall tear the most…
It shall be me whose name in memory,
Because I miss all who loved me so dearly
I will miss your hugs and touches.
Be sure that I did not leave your sides
I am with the Father that cares
By His side in the place He had prepared
My presence will be with you through day and night
Until we meet for eternity
There wouldn’t be this physical barrier that keeps us apart
For His promises we are saved
In His orders we shall live.
Don’t tear more than your smiles
As your tears make my heart aches
Let this be the last time I tear
Because I want you to see me smile when we meet
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